please pray my sister agrees to be a co-signer on an apartment rental and my move there goes smoothly. Please pray I continue to work from home at least part-time so I can be home with my dog & 2 cats in this transition yet have enough money to pay for this apartment and food. I need a miracle right now. I've been through 18months of crisis, loss, isolation, abuse-- this apartment is my only hope of getting away from the abuse and having a chance to be alive again.

my mother kicked me out of the house the night before Christmas Eve. I'm unemployed and broke.

I need a miracle. My 73yr mother is very sick psychologically. I'd hoped living with her this year would help her and my sister (who's been caring for her the 10yrs I was living out of state). My mother needs help. My sister needs help (she doesn't see my mother's mood swings and abuse for what it is-- she assumes she deserves it all). I need a good-paying job so I can have a home again. I need enough confidence, self-love (I'm quite beat up after 1yr of living w/ my mother)-- to believe I can be of value to anyone.

thank you

The man I was with for 3 1/2 years ended things 28Dec last year. This was 12 days after I had to move in with my 74yr old abusive mother to sleep on her couch indefinitely due to CA unemployment not mailing me money for 8 months.

He says he can't deal with my depression (I'm not a depressive...but yes, I was quite upset & scared about losing my home and moving in with this abusive parent 100% dependent on her). He says I have too much self-pity (despite my constant comments on how lucky I am to have a parent to live with vs. living on the street).

For context-- He's a millionaire- raised in wealthy family. Earns over $200k for working less than 30hrs/week. He cried as he informed me he was forced to downgrade from his convertible bmw to a minicooper.

I fell in love with him and planned to marry him because he showed me this beautiful generous loving side. I know that's in him. But his mother was harshly critical-even of him as a child-to the point of abusive. So is his uncle. I know this harsh negative attitude is not him, just his upbringing.

PRAYER- can you please pray that he sees my reality vs. looking down on me? Please pray for me? I wanted kids so desperately and I thought he & I were a great team so I stayed with him for 3+ years despite my age (I was 36 when we met, now I'm 40). Basically I thew away my chance to have kids and I'm devastated-- this is something that will NEVER change, no hope. I feel I have no future. No reason to be alive now. Please pray- I keep hearing G*d only gives us what we can handle. But I can't handle all the failure and disappointment anymore. It's just too much.

I've had nothing but failure in my career efforts. 20+ years of working overtime to develop my career and here I am at 40 unemployed. When I do work, I'm only doing entry-level admin work. I always believed G*d didn't give me career success because he/she wanted me to be a wife/mother. But now that is gone too. I don't know why G*d has me here. I'm just a waste of space.

I used to pray daily-- multiple times a day. Asking for G*d's guidance, etc. But he/she never answers. I gave up praying about a year ago.

I was hoping maybe he/she might respond to your request for help.

Thank you for listening- I know I'm longwinded. sorry.
kara