Dear Sister .. in Christ Jesus ! I understand where your heart and mind is speaking out. I know, you are hurt deep within beyond. Your sufferings and traumas are intense. But pls remember that Jesus is also in your pain. He is going through with you all that you are going through. Hurting yourself might console you or take you away fr reality temporarily. But when you are back to reality the wounds of the soul will deepen. You are a powerful Spiritual being on this earth. Remeber that you are His beloved daughter. And that the moment you decide not to remain in the vibrations of the negative energies you will rise. What is pulling you down, will raise you higher in His name. Rise above all of this Sister. You can and you will ! I'm sending you healing energies of Love Light and peace. Wherever you are, you are to be healed. You will be delivered. You will be unchained. In the powerful Mighty name of Jesus Christ I pray. I seal you with His Benovelent Love and Grace. Claim it. It's yours. To Deserve and to serve. Amen !