I have been looking everywhere for a real friend. Some one to share with. I have many people around me all the time but sadly enough they are just people around me. I found two friends and became very close to them . As time went on the relationships changed and God was telling me something but I could not hear Him clearly. I wanted at least one of these friends to spend my life with and soon found myself making a big decision to settle for a life with one and when I did , God showed me the vision of the the future. I had dreams of things to coe, heard the voice of whispers telling me to be on alert.. Many nights I could not sleep.. A few days ago I woke very early and looked out of the window. I was cold and rainy I heard a voice speaking to me saying " You are about to get a surprise" I looked for gifts and nothing . I text my friend and all seemed to be well. I am thinking ll kinds of things when I woke up this morning after listening to 133 of the Psalms and the whole world was different. I had a rocky interaction with both of the friends I cherished so much. I dremt the night befor e I was on the cliff with them. God has not left me yet. I now know that God was showing me that neither elationship was healthy and so Jesus is my best friend and always will be. The reason is Just when I am about to get deeper in to trouble He steers me away.
He spoke through me and gave me the right words to say.to this abusive relationship built on tons of lies and empty promises. Lord I thank you and praise you for the blood you poured upon me and set me free. I will always listen to the many signs and whispers now when God is speaking to me.

As I move forward into 2016 I feel different. Like brand new. The chapter has been closed on over baring abusive relationships and God has decreed a new and wonderful life of love. I feel the freedom of the love of God like never before and there are endless possibilities awaiting in the future. I feel blessed to be stepping out of grief and mourning into life abundant living. Thank you Lord for your love and your gift of life. Thank you for the possibility of sharing my life and thank you for giving me the tools to trust again just because your love has healed me.. Praise God!