Flossy tell us you are ok!

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Flossy. This hurts me so much. We all have something to give. Sometimes we just need to wait out God's will. Allowing the devil to take you down is not the way. I've been here too much to not say I know. I'm disabled everything I love has been taken from me. I had to learn a whole new life and perspective that wasn't constantly putting myself down when I am still so blessed. You have to find the little things that is key. All the bad is intentional because you are trying and the devil hates that. The more you give to the lord, the harder the dark side fights you. I've been so sad for you. Worried about you. Please 🙏 🙏 🙏 know I am your sister and I fight every single moment of every day to try and not succumb to the hopelessness I also feel inside. I stay because I know with all I've been through and it's horrible I can help another and another and I do. Daily. Know your pain is ours also. You are never alone. I love you babe! Please consider my heart as a means to try. Jo

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It truly does hurt to hear you say this love. You are perfect to me. But I hear you, I feel you, I am not happy to read this but I am proud of you to say it the way it is. You want to know a secret? I have the exact same feelings too often. And other cause this in me. Or the circumstances at the moment. I literally say what you did. But the real truth is don't let the fear and bs pull you down. I hurt when you feel hopeless but I truly understand it. Love do you go to therapy? I have on and off my whole life. I'm so proud of you for being real. That's a huge step towards a new beginning. I look at it as books. We have a book with chapters of our life and every year we start a new book. And no matter how it begins or ends being real and honest is key to beginning a new. I ask one thing. Don't physically hurt yourself. I do care. You already are hurting emotionally and mentally. I pray you can find peace in me. I am sorry I am not on more. My grams 96 and has very aggressive cancer, my hubby is going in to find out if what has him bed ridden is cancer. I'm terrified. I want to put up my walls or run. But here's the thing. Doing that not only hurts me but them, furthermore I lose time. Precious time with them. But sometimes I have to step back and have me time. I have stage 3 lung disease and a bunch of other things... I didn't cause it. And I lost so much of myself I can never get back. I've lost almost everyone I love. Covid, cancer .. it's not fare. I'm sorry you have to feel as you do. I take meds also for this. But that pill is not enough. We have have to try. For I only come on here for you. I love you. Really. I wish and pray you could get a break from the devils hell and enjoy some time with yourself and the lord and feel loved. You are. Always by me and so many others. If I could be with you I'd hold you and show you that my love is unconditional and listen to you not just with my ears but my heart as I always try to do. Can you do something that is just for you, a walk, a moment of total peace where you can be blank and just look up and see the sky, for that moment is just for you. Total peace and comfort with all thing in you and around you. Then hold on to that. Inhale true joy. And when you have another bad moment pull out that good one and go there. We are not our bodies that's just a case to hold your beautiful soul. I was so grateful I was a model but I ended up 200lbs and truly couldn't look in the mirror. Now I'm close to my old weight but I have scars from the rapid weight loss. I am afflicted by that and so much more. Intangible things that are not true I hear myself thinking. Bad things. We all have some sort of negative side of us that is always nagging us. But some of us, it never stops. I will tell you you have the power to accept you. It's very hard to obtain but you have to change your attitude. Your view point. And figure out why you think you not enough because you are enough. And anyone who doesn't give you that needs to be gone, out of your life. Take your time and God bless you forever and always. Love you, jo💋