Hi Jesse,
God loves you and wants the best for you! Sometimes it is important to look deeper. Sometimes no response is more than a response. The first step with this situation is the hardest, and that is to accept that she is not responding to your requests and messages. Through the help of solitude and acceptance, you cann slowly move on and find peace inside of you. it is not easy but it is for the best of you.

Thank you. It’s just so hard for my feelings to accept what my mind already knows - or maybe I’m just being delusional or impatient. It’s hard for my mind to influence my feelings.