I am beaten down and am giving up....My marriage in his eyes he says were over. In my eyes were still married, a covenant made between him, me and God. I believe love is a choice but he wants his friends and says he doesn't want to be married anymore...we have Children and its effecting them..after 20 years, crushed blindsided..one sleeps all day....Dear Lord, father Jesus..I know my timing is not your timing but bless our marriage and reveal to him the importance of our marriage covenant, I am loosing hope, I'm letting go and want to move on if he doesn't love me but I made a commitment and vow. Not sure what to do...I keep praying..Are you telling me to wait? I'm hurting for my girls the most, He doesn't think this effects them Lord I pray you would protect them from this pain. Reveal the truth and I pray save our marriage or tell me to move on somehow. Dear Lord I'm loosing hope, I'm letting him go and detaching from him. If he does come back how can I love this man again...full of betrayal and lies. I know we don't battle flesh and blood but I've vigiled for you Lord and for what's right so please Lord guide me to your Holy word and reveal what I should do....We are all hurting or Change is heart Lord, I know you've changed hearts of kings if it is your will Lord...In Jesus Precious name I pray.
Amen!