Hello Everyone,

I humbly request your prayers again...

Back in 2019, I went back to college to finish my degree as a working adult in my mid-30s... (I wasn't able to finish college when I was younger because we were so poor and my parents couldn't afford to send me to school.)

I thank God, that I was able to finally graduate from my studies and got myself a degree just last year.

I have always been working hard so I could provide for my family, however, because of the pandemic, our company suffered from severe losses so our work hours were drastically reduced and I ended up getting so little pay... I could no longer make ends meet. I can no longer pay rent, pay my bills and help my family financially...

Though I was able to finally finish college, I suffered from severe loss of income and I'm currently drowning in debts because of loans that I used in funding my education...

Now, debt collectors are threatening me with legal actions because I could barely pay them... The interests and penalties are sky-high and I can no longer think of ways on how I could pay them... I tried to talk to them but they just won't understand my situation. I no longer know what to do... 😢

I have been seeing a psychiatrist and I'm currently on anti-depressants, anxiolytics, and mood stabilizers, since the start of the pandemic as I suffered from severe depression, anxiety, and panic attacks because of the messages, calls, and threats from collection agencies... I almost tried to end my life because I could no longer bear all the calls, texts, and emails that I have been getting from collection agencies about my debts...

The only intention I have for finishing my studies as an adult was for me to be able to find a better job so that I could provide for my family...

I never thought that wanting to finish college so that, as a breadwinner of the family, I could improve our quality of life would just give me so many problems and too many debts...

Sometimes, I just wish that I could turn back the hands of time... I really regret going back to school...

Sometimes, I feel like God is punishing me for being too ambitious... for not being content... But I just wanted to finish college, not for myself but for me to be able to find a better job for my family... Because, here in my country, without a degree, it would be hard for you to find a decent-paying job...

I always pray, and I always try to talk to God... to help me...

But I feel so helpless and hopeless right now... Every single day is a struggle... I just want all this suffering to stop... 😢 I'm scared...

Please pray for me... Please pray for me that God will listen to me and that He will give me the strength to face all these trials...

Everything right now seems so dark for me... I cry almost every day... I could barely sleep... I feel so tired... I try my best to pretend that everything is okay because I don't want my family to worry about me... My mom is already old and sickly, my youngest sister is still in college and I'm the one paying for her school... I don't want them to know about my problems as I'm the only one they can depend on...

But I already feel so tired now... so exhausted with everything that's going on with my life...

It has always been just me, myself, and I... I have no one to help me... I wanna be strong... but I no longer know how long I could still hold on...

Please pray for me...

I want this to be over...

Please pray for me and my family...

Thank you so much and may God bless you all...