Please pray for me, that That I can fell well this christmas, so I can be with my family and not be anxious and sad.

You see I have leave with depression and anxiety for so long and always around christmas It use to be very bad. I can't handled it. I always feel like a bad person when I can't be in the mood of Joy, like I fail to give especially my children, good memories of christmas. They are young adoults know, but It doesn't matter, the feelings are always the same, that I feeling ashamed that Im sad and anxious.

I have tried for so many years, to show me selfcompasion and Tried in so many ways to give me self love, but it's hard to go in.

Please help me god

Help me god to manager my anxiety to be alone by my self in my apartment. I am at a hospital right for depression/anxiety. Today I was Home on leave, but after a short while at Home I could not stand it so I sent back to the hospital, had a meeting with a psychiatrists and he pushing me to try more under this weekend to go back in leave I am totaly terrified. I felt so misarble and felt so bad before I came here and had thougts that I did not Want to live any more. I have been on the hospital 12 days to day and I have been lighter and light er for each day, so therefore It was such a big overthrow that everything was back. Powerlessness fear Is what I feel right now. Can not handle my dark thougts and lonelyness.

Can you please for me?

God please help me with my big trauma in life. Please release from my doubts, dark thougts, anxiety and phobia for being alone with all that above. Help me to dare reach out for help when I need it. Please pray for me that I find love and kindness people out there.

I pray for all the people who's suffering out there ❤️🙏