I was supposed to have back surgery but while going through the pre-surgery test I found out that there is something wrong with my heart. My t-waves are upside down, my heart rate is off, and I have bradycardia. I am overwhelmed by all this news. I am having a stress test done tomorrow to find out more. Please pray that I make it through the stress test and that there is not a serious problem with my heart. I am the kind of person that put others before me and I have to learn how to now take care of me.

I need a new place to live because I can no longer afford my apartment. I have my name on the list for affordable housing. I get a letter telling me that I have to accept the place and be ready to move in on the 15th of January. Then nothing. This weekend I get a e-mail telling me that I can apply for section 8, (which would greatly help me). It is a lottery so there are no guarantee that I will be accepted into the program. I am supporting my son and on disability. I only bring in enough money to pay my rent and buy some groceries. I go to the food bank once a month because my money does not go far enough. I also cannot afford things such as Medication that is no longer covered under my insurance plan, Dr's Co-Payments. I can only afford on tank of gas a month so I have to be careful where I go.

I know there are others struggling like me and I do feel bad for all of them. When I received the notice about the affordable apartment, I believed it was God coming to my rescue. Maybe my prayers are not enough so I am asking for others to pray.

Please pray for me that I will get on Section 8 and that the Affordable Apartment will become available to me soon.

I thank all of you in advance for your sincere prayers.

I have been battling with trying to understand why I was abused by my Mother and how the rest of my family followed her. My Mother has been dead for 3 years and my family still abuses me. I cannot seem to get over this abuse. I have be diagnosed with PTSD because of the abuse I sustained from childhood into adulthood. I can only turn to God and all of you because I believe in the power of prayer. I have been made to feel that I am unworthy of being alive. As you know abuser strip you of friends to keep you under their control and I am ashamed to say that I have no friends to lean on. Lord, please help me, I am so desperate for help. Please know that I have been in counseling but it does not help. The hurt and pain is so deeply embedded.

I feel as though I am actually able to speak to God and sure could use some prayers. My life is not easy it has been one of physical abuse. My children are now grown and I am on my own. I have no friends and sadness overwhelms me.. I spend almost the entire day in my bed. I hate that I am unable to do things and that I am a roly poly. I have pain in my back and vertigo. People see me as fat and undesirable yet, I want love in my life again. Lord you know that I have always loved my children and enjoyed that life I had with them but know there is physical distance between us and my happy times are few. Please bless me Lord and help me find love again. Someone who will truly love me for who I am a be able to see the good that is inside of me. Please help me to be functional and out going. Help me find Life again. I thank you Amen

God has been good to me but there is something I want to take on. I want to write a book in order to help others who have are or have been victims of abuse. I ask you to pray that God will guide me and put the words on paper for me. If I could help just one person recover or leave their abuser then I have completed my task. Please pray for my success through the grace of the Lord.

I ask for prayer for the people in France. My heart is broken that they have suffered such a horrific act of violence. As the Blessed Mother asked us to pray for peace with Russia we now need to pray for global peace.