Rita, if you are in a bad situation there is always help! Ask your church or a Catholic Church near you, I'm sure they would help. The church sometimes has a house that people in need can stay at for a while, not forever, but for a while. Even Social Services can help you find a woman's shelter if that is what is necessary, until you can get your passport and a way back home. I am praying for and with you, in Jesus precious name, Amen

I try to block any negative image, thought, or word whenever that comes into my mind. That is all from the enemy! Try to only focus on the positive in all that you do. Look only for what brings joy or a good feeling. Rebuke the negative, only you can do that in your own mind. I totally agree with Simone, in giving God ALL the glory and communicating either in word, prayer or song just how much you love Him and appreciate ALL that He does for you, and everyone. Keep focusing on the beautiful and look away from anything that brings you down. Proverbs 3:5-6 New International Version (NIV)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to Him,
and He will make your paths straight.
I have prayed with/for you, in Jesus most Holy Name, Amen