Dear Colleen Marie God has a plan for you to be loved and happy . Your soul mate is out there .your friend is not the one for you , while God is guiding you Colleen I would like to ask you to find a passion like hiking or bowling or wine tasting .take a class or join a group and do this and you will gain more confidence as well as meet new people to socialize with and it might help you to meet a soul mate . You have to get out there , out of your comfort zone and challenge yourself . I know you are shy but believe me this will work . Join an organization , group that will give you joy . You run do a Marathon, help people Join habitat to renovate or build homes . Just find a passion and do it and you will meet people more likeminded . There is a sea of potential interest . God bless you and I know your soul mate is out there just help them find you and find yourself as well 🙏