Prayers please for me. I strongly desire to be back in the game of life to love and serve and flirt and be playful and enjoy life. I seem to have fallen in a hole. Ilearned a lot, about my pride and my fear of people but I'm stuck here. I pray God turns this mishap into something good. I am afraid to face my responsibilities now. The problems I let pile up because of the shame of my actions. Shame is a prison it seems it also seems to be pride that keeps me from coming back. Knowing this doesn't seem to help though. I have faith that God will restore me and make a way for me. Buy idk if I can face the things that keep me stuck here. I truly need a miracle to do the things that should be easy for most. Thanks for hearing my troubles and spending time to.pray for me.

I slipped up and went back to my old ways. I shouldn't have. I felt luke there was something I could get my way. It didn't work it didn't satisfy. Now have fear that I'm in a hole . I have caused myself extra struggle. I feel like God was telling me not to be afraid to fall. That where was something to be learned or done pride to be worked through. Idk if that's how I justified my relapse or if it was a necessary part of my journey. I did learn alot on this relapse but I'm not sure if I am ready to stay sober again. could use some prayer please and thanks

Its rough tight now. Quarantined, isolated, depressed, confused, tempted with relapse, and probably going to be alone for Christmas. Though I am determined not to give up. For all you guys suffering through the same my heart is with you and trust me I understand your pain. I pray the Good Lord provide us with the strength and provision to sustain through whatever this season brings.

The things that cause me to suffer aren't so tangible. Maybe I can do more about it. On the one hand I get the message the battle is the Lords I rest and he works, but also I think to myself that the suffering is of my lack of strength or control over my worries. I feel trapped in with nowhere to run to except the comfort of entertainment based distractions (tv) which is probably causing me to suffer more but it is all I can seem to do. My Bible is on my night stand but it seems to weigh ten thousand pounds. I get a little word hear and there from Furtick and various apps. Its so easy to be ashamed and beat myself up or is that just conviction that I am not doing enough? How to move forward? Right now all I can do is hold on it seems.

Sometimes you just gotta cry out to the lord with emotion and whatever is really in your heart not what you think you are supposed to say.