The ups and downs of life. I desire connection. I have lonely places in my heart. I seek to consume things that makes me feel better. They never satisfy for long. I keep trying to find contentment in places that brings none. I try to fill that place the lack of pleasure or satisfaction with God. But I cannot be still long enough. I can't get what I am looking for doing the same things and I consciously know it. Growth happens outside the comfort zone but comfort is so much easier. I get distracted with what I want knowing that usually after I get what I want its never what I am looking for. Its almost as if I only want it it because it's out of reach. I exist primarily at the level of feeling. How do I transform?

I am walking in the favor of the Most High. Major blessings are coming my way. I will be a blessing. I am filled with the light of divine Love. I prophecy that I will see my hearts desire soon. My waiting period is over. I prophecy breakthrough and supernatural experiences that are unexplainable for my family and my loved ones and myself. I speak life and Joy over myself. These mountains have no choice but to be cast into the sea. In the name of Yeshua the Christ Let it be so.

I will see great and amazing things very soon.

I will see the goodness of God in the land of the living. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life!.

Been in a isolated television binge procrastinating whats important and lost my focus a few days. I pray i break the cycle tomorrow. I pray for God's insight and drive and wisdom and encouragement and a new revelation and peace and contentment. I want to feel like things are going to be ok without worrying. 🙁