Have faith in God almighty, he works wonders. Depression is fears of the past and anxiety is fear of the future. Look down at your feet and realize that you're living in the now and that's where God is. The ego (the devil) wants you to live in fear and anxiety. Because you have your focus on the ego which is "Easing God Out", that's where the pain steps in. Write a gratitude list of everything you do have and focus on that. My prayers are with you. God bless you.

There are meetings online for addicts and also for alcoholics. I feel this will really help you because you'll be able to identify with other people just like you. It is a support system to keep you clean. Download zoom and then on Google pull up online AA online meetings at zoom. It will ask you for an ID number and a password. Which you will get on the AA meeting zoom. I've been there and I know the pain that you're going through We are never alone. If you continue this your life will change for the better. As mine has done, since I was a heroin addict and quit in 1978. God bless you! These 12 step meetings will change your entire life for the better.

I have shared with you before and I suffer from IBS, "irritable bowel syndrome". And the panic attacks come from stress. They all are related. I would strongly suggest for you see a psychiatrist for meds which helped me tremendously. And the gastroenterologist for your stomach. I'm not a doctor but work for me might work for you. Maybe I went through this to help you. Only God knows. My prayers are for you and your family to have peace and not stress during these times of trouble. Everything is already written out for our lives, we just have to participate and Trust GOD!! God bless you. 🙏