Please pray I would be able to recieve the strength from God to keep going. This mental torment only gets worse and worse it seems and I've just about exhausted all my strength to hold on. It's too much. I can't handle it. I'm about to break.

Please pray God would change me and my life by whatever means necessary. Whatever it takes, I don't care. I can't stand to be who I am anymore. I can't change without God. Please pray God would change me and my life completely. I can't fix my habits and behaviors on my own (I have tried.) I am hungry to have an experience with God. I have been seeking Him and I will continue to do so. Please pray God would help me and answer my prayers.

Please pray God can help me forgive all the people who hurt me intentionally and unintentionally and help me let that pain go. Please pray God would help me forget about someone I like that doesn't feel the same. Please pray God would let me know I'm here for a reason. This depression I have battled with for over 2 decades is really bad right now. I'm looking for anything as a reason enough to encourage me to stay here despite this soul and spirit crushing unbearable sorrow that never ends but only intensifies in waves. Please pray God would comfort and strengthen me. I'm feeling like I'm about to be crushed to pieces. When I pray and cry out to God and spend time seeking Him out and am ignored, I can't help but feel completely worthless and defeated. I feel like I'm not important enough for God to answer so maybe He regrets making me?

I am really struggling with my depression today. I have had this depression for over 2 decades. Nothing really helps it. I have tried to seek God with all my soul and I still haven't found Him. I read that He doesn't lie and that there is no favoritism with Him and that He doesn't give us more than we can handle. But my depression is more than I can handle. I have cried out to Him daily. He knows my pain if He has noticed. I can't help but feel like He made me to ignore me. His promises never come to pass in my life and I've waited and waited and waited and waited and it never gets better or easier. Why does God like to ignore me? Why does He like to say He's good and that He doesn't have favorites and that He won't give anyone more than they can handle when it's a lie even though He says He doesn't lie? Why does God want to push me till I can't take it so He can send me to hell? Why can't He just be honest and tell me He made me to hurt me and send me to hell and that is why it's always been more than I can handle and that is why He doesn't step in because I was never meant to be healed?

Thankyou to every one of you for all the prayers you have prayed on my behalf. I really appreciate it and am grateful. I can tell a difference when people pray and I feel less attacked spiritually. I'm not sure how else to explain it other than I can have my own thoughts and not constantly be trying to ward off thoughts of death and suicide. May God truly bless all of you. I am asking for your continued prayers for God to heal me of depression and anxiety and help me see myself the way He sees me. Also, that He would help me get over Peter and in the future to stop getting crushes on people who never seem to like me back. God bless all of you.

Please pray God helps me be able to recieve His goodness. Please pray God helps me forget about all the people I have liked in the past that have denied me and that He gives me someone who actually loves me for me. I want to experience unconditional love at least once in my lifetime. Please pray God would give peace to my tormented soul and help me with withdrawl and not care that I'm gaining weight. Please pray God would overwhelm me with His love. If He can do all things, He can bypass any barriers I have subconsciously around my heart if He knows it's my will to recieve His love. He knows all of this. Please pray God would give me peace. I'm so tired of feeling sad and fighting to urge to give up.

Please pray God would help me forgive all those who could have helped me and whom I reached out to but refuse to. Please pray God would handle those people, especially Peter. Please pray that God would help me let all of the pain and resentment and jealousy go and forget I ever knew them. Please pray God would show me He loves me just as much as those who wronged me. Please pray God would have mercy on me and help me do what He put me here to do. I'm unable to get out of my situation alone and even if people helped me when I reached out, I can't get out of it in the natural and survive. Please pray God would pull me out of my situation and rescue me. I need a miracle to get out of it and be mentally ok. I'm already struggling with depression 20 years now with little relief and an addiction. There is more but.....Please pray God would heal me from it all and not just love on Peter who has all the support and resources he needs and clearly could help me but doesn't want to. Please pray God would help me let go of this jealousy and resentment and help me to forgive him and forget he ever existed.

Please pray God would show up in my life and show me what love is because I've never felt His love, only that He discarded me like my earthly father. He only loved me up to a point but not anymore. Please pray God knows I exist.

Please pray God will make a way where there is no way. I am in a situation where it would be impossible to get out of it in the natural on my own strength. I am trying not to think about it and focus on God. I see nothing changing and I'm not getting any clarity on what I should do. Please pray God would give me peace of mind and some way to know without a doubt that He's got me and that it will all be ok in the end. Now I don't know if He's for me or not. I can't differentiate between the relationship I have with God from the relationship I had with my earthly father. My earthly father loved me until I reached a certain age and then he discarded me. For some reason, I feel like God did that to me to or if I trust Him, that is what will happen. I want to believe He's with me and will make sure it's not too much for me to handle. I can't think or will my way out of the situation I'm in. I know I will just be condemned and judged if I reach out because I did in the past and that is what happens. I pray to God but I can't feel Him and that makes me feel like since nothing is changing and I can't feel Him, that He isn't for me. Please pray that God will do whatever He wants to do in my to make Him like me more. I'm weary, I'm exhausted and I'm running out of hope. I don't want to believe God made me to love Him only for Him to hurt me in return. I have suffered with treatment resistant depression 20 years now and an addiction the past 2. If i try to get out of the addiction, I could get so depressed there would be no hope and also, because of my earthly father (and other things I'm sure), I associate weight gain with abandonment and I have this terror of it so sobering up would mean everyone would abandon me. Ultimately, I'm afraid that whatever ends up happening will be too much for me and I'll end up in hell because I'd have killed myself. It's always in the back of my mind but I've resisted it so far. I feel like all my efforts to hold on to this life even though I don't want to have been in vain. I really wanted to know what it was like to live before I die and the way things are looking, I never will. I just want to enjoy life and love people and now I'm never going to get the chance and even though people say its in my control, it isn't. It's in God's control. Please pray God has mercy on me and delivers me before it's too late and I am not able to take it anymore.

Thankyou to everyone who prays for me. It really does help and I really need your help right now. Please pray for me. I'm tired of holding on for a move of God. Sorrow is just crushing me and I'm not able to think my way or will my way out of this problem. I'm tired Im weary. Please pray God hears and answers me immediately. Despite declaring scriptures over myself, I still feel like I'm barely hanging on to hope. Please pray God would act and not deny me because I this has been too long and seeing that its not getting better, its really hard to continue to hope.