Sorry to bother but I am struggling with living unholy. I see all these beautiful testimonies of Christ and I do not understand how it was so easy for them. I feel like God hates me because I am lukewarm. I am struggling with many sins, not even "struggling" just I have a lot of them and I don't know if God can change me. Nothing works, nobody can do anything at least that is how it feels. Here are some major sins, not all of them, that I need to change from: Porn, Homosexuality, Lust, Idolatry, Hatred, Unforgiveness, Dishonoring parents, Anger, Selfishness, Pride, etc.