Father, I am struggling right now. I am at my weak point in my life. I won’t say my weakness but I am struggling. I am looking to your for my strength that I need to fight above it all. But what I need to do first and foremost is stay thank you. Thank you for my life that I have, my health, my family, friends and my son. Thank you for seeing him throughout to his graduation. For all of this including your love I am beyond grateful. Joel is standing tall in my corner and I know through you I will see the light at the end of the tunnel. I need nothing more than your love and strength. You’re all that I need. I keep fighting with myself, not to become the old person that I was. The person that wants revenge. I fight everyday. Not to think about that person. I dream them happy I dream that person hurting me over and over the pain that was inflicted on me. I don’t want to cause someone that I still have so much love for pain and suffering. The devil is a liar and I am fighting this battle the best that I can with my inner peace and strength. Father, all I need is you father. I am learning this more each and everyday. At one point all I wanted was a loving relationship with someone to love me unconditionally and grow old with, but I have learned that all I need is you father, my son, mother and the few family and friends that really have my best interests at heart ♥️. I am blessed more then I ever really realized before. So I am grateful. I love you father, I know I have a long battle to fight and I need you in my corner and you in my heart which you always have been and that will never change. So thank you father.