today i heard a story of a woman that has the similar situation like me. I know if i continue on my wrong way, im gonna end up like her. God, it's just so hard for me to say goodbye to him... Pleaseeee help me. pleasee give me time, please wait for me and don't give up on me. Please give me some help this time to give my life more hope and something to live happily in this world! I love you, my God.