God has known whats in my heart all my life, and God knows what I experienced as a small boy, so what else is he looking for? God never listens to my prayers, I always feel like He's to busy or indiffierent but never the less He's God and I'm just a man, a temporary thing on this earth. Thank God for the sunshine this morning and the singing from the local church.
I wish God would give me back my lost loved one's that left my life years ago, but it's his decision who comes and who goes in my life journey God knows best for all of us, and I know God knows us and me better than I know myself, I pray for peace and serenity and to lead and live the peaceful life I pray God will heal my CPTSD brain thats stuck in flight or fight mode everyday all day
Stop trying to people please it will never work. It will only make you sad miserable and unhappy. Take all the energy and power and use it in another way.