I dont know you but I care. I'm praying for you. GOD does love you. He is teaching you to love yourself. Family and friends will turn on you at anytime its in the Bible. You have to believe you are worthy of life. I can relate because I have felt alone all my life, even with people standing right next to me. Its a cold world but you touched my heart. I'm praying and routing for you. 🙏🙏🙏🙏 It might not ever be the life you want but it can be and will get better. Believe and keep him first. Talk to him even if you cant see him and you must pray to him too. ❤