A prayer request maybe? Or seeking for answers?

I end up asking God why he has given me a second life? What should I do still? I feel tired with whats happening already and reaching up to the point that it feels like it's too difficult to breathe life already, seems like theres nowhere to go and I'm stucked when I feel like i have to do something and move forward but im stucked and it just makes me feel more tired and numb.

My daily message for today is, "God wanted you to know that it's ok to ask for help."

I ended up here because my family and i are now being surrounded with covid positive already. Thank God we are all still so full of strength and energy esp my parents. On the other hand, this covid is not just an ordinary/normal virus anymore. Day by day, little by little the level of fear that im feeling is increasing esp. that we just discovered lately that my father was exposed already to a covid positive. And we knew it lately as they were likely keeping it secretly. And nowadays it's so difficult to make a move as we are living in SA. Super strict rules. And not our home country.
As time passes by, im slowly getting blank. Getting lost. And i just keep asking, what is my purpose here? Why, i am still here? :( Because this pandemic is the 2nd reason why i had to wait again to go back to my home country. Now that we are not legally living here already. What is our purpose here why we couldnt head back to our own country?
I see myself helping people who wanted to go back home badly. I see my family helping people. But why does it looks like i keep helping them and not myself.. i keep facing their struggles but not my own? :'( we have plans but why does it seems like its going in another path were it leads us to helping other people..
I love helping people. I love helping others. There is no problem at all. But im having questions..
I wanted to ask help. I wanted to ask for prayers. Everyday, everynight i deeply pray to you lord. I cry to my prayers. What is my purpose here.. :(
I ended up here because i dont know whats happening already and i dont know if i could still handle the upcoming events. And i am so much worried to my family's safety in here esp for my parents. :(
I pray to you lord to give me some light. To give me strength, to guide me always, To guide and protect my family especially in the midst of this pandemic.
Lord, i trust you.
Lord, i believe in you.
Lord, i put my faith in you.
Lord, you, above all things. The Almighty God, the most high and powerful in this world. I ask and pray to heal my loved ones, each and everyone of us in this world. May this virus be gone and washed away.
Lord, please save us. 😢