I know this sounds selfish, but I pray that me and Christian will truly be together for Eternity. I know that it's all in Gods Hands, and what will be is just as it should be. I LOVE him so much! I just want him to realize that his true Happiness is right in front of him. Me. I am willing to wait until the time is right. I am willing to let him go and for him to be who he needs to be....make his own mistakes. Set him Free. I already have, and he always comes back, but he also always holds back just a bit of himself. We are true friends, and I Do know that we always will be. We are much, much more to each other. We help each other. He was a saving Grace for me at a time when I needed someone most. And me for him. I know that. He was, and still is my Angel right here on Earth! He is not perfect. Who among us are? But he has taught me so many things. Patience...really (still 'workin' on that one). Most of all he has taught me about God and has helped me to accept God into my life. (even though now I know that He has always been here for me) Christian Gabriel Cabrera is a gentle, wise, brave, loving, thoughtful, kind, respectful, honorable, Beautiful man. Christian is not an abusive man. (I was married to one of those. Abusive, but Not a man....not a woman, just NOT a real man!) Christian's grandfather taught him, among many wise things, that if you ever raise your hand to a woman that you can NEVER call yourself a man again. How beautiful is that? No, he is not an abusive man; just a much younger man. Confused, trying to find his place in this world...as we all are. I just pray that he comes to Know that part of his 'place' is right beside me living his own life. Living our lives together. Free, not smothering. He loves me. I know that. He would do anything for me as he has proven over time again and again. As I would do anything for him. Not because he asks; he doesn't, but because I Want to. We have helped each other out, leaned on each other, comforted each other, have fun with each other, cried with each other, and we've prayed for each other. He has given me so much strength, and has stood up for me at a time when I was not strong enough. He has helped me find my own strength. Through Christian I have finally learned about Love. The kind of love between a man and a woman. I know that love does not tie you down or hold you back. Real love does not demand that you be something or someone you are not. True love does not expect anything in return. Love does not try to control another person. Love is there through good and not so good. I have learned not to be afraid of Love. (I was very cynical when we first met two years ago) I have learned to let go and to not hold on so tightly as to destroy it. I just want Christian to truly be Happy. I want him to always feel good. (I'm not so altruistic...of course I hope that is always with me) That is why I am here asking for your Prayers. (Smile) My l
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