Please pray for me and my mother. She had a stroke 3 years ago, and since then, I have been her sole caregiver. My brother passed the year before, and none of my extended family, including her own siblings, have all but abandoned us. She is declining mentally, having serious delusions. We have tried every treatment presented and so far nothing has worked. It is affecting our relationship terribly. She depends on me for everything, and I cannot make everything all better. I get frustrated, she gets frustrated. But mostly I'm afraid she is slipping away. Then I'm completely alone. I'm 56, single, with no children. No siblings, no extended family to speak of. Taking care of her full time I have no job, no friends in the area. And I'm so angry with God. I've tried to stay positive. I've tried to keep my faith that God will bring us through this. But it's been nothing but struggling and pain. I want to have faith, but I can't seem to find my way back. I'm afraid to trust God. I put my trust in Him and He still allowed my mom to live through such anguish. I don't ask for much for myself. I try to be still and listen to Him, and follow the path he has for me. But every time I followed what I thought was a door opening, I walked to it and it was slammed in my face.

I'm so lost and afraid. And angry. And defeated. And alone and isolated. I don't know how to find my way out of this. To find a way back to faith.