Know that you are not alone, cause my husband is also. He changed completely since his triple bypass open heart surgery last june, and started a long distance relationship with a married friend of his from California, that he knew as a young kid, and now stating that he no longer loves me and devotes all his time and most of what engery he has, to her, listening to everything SHE tells him and wants him to do, for her. So as if I am not even here. But thing is, I still am. I still take care of him, when he falls I am the one picking him up off the floor, I am the one making sure he eats, and I cook and keep the house, for him as well, I make sure all of his medical needs are met and take him to all his medical appointments. Do I still love him?? Yes, cause I am his wife, and to leave him would be breaking God's law, til death do you part. you don;t just leave when it gets tough. Instead, I am getting closer to God, While he is standing in the dark. His choice, not mine. So I get it. Prayer for you both.

Dearest one,
I was also in a toxic relationship, many many years ago. IF the home you are in does NOT belong to you, then leave. take up your pallet [ as God said ] and walk. Leave the toxic home, take what means the most to you and just leave. find another place, maybe in another city or state, and start again, and get a doctor that will take you off the meds you are on, and come back to your church of worship, and follow God more closly. I did it many yrs ago, you can to. Follow God, stay strong in what your faith is with him.