I pray for God's grace and mercy among your life. I truly believe that the only way you will be happy is to cut your mother out your life. U trying to fix her but buy neglecting you. We all love our parents but they can be as toxic as a bad relationship. The devil will always come when he see you trying to better yourself. You gotta trust that God will be there through whatever trials and tribulations you going thru you just gotta believe. The devil is putting those negative thoughts in your head. And you gotta fight that devil. When those thoughts come. You say devil no not this time. My God is awesome. He my strength my refuge. He's my way maker and devil you aint gonna still my joy. God has brought you this far for a reason. You just gotta trust Him and His word l. He will never leave you nor forsake you. I pray you find your way and and that God strengthen your mind to leave the drugs alone and trust He has your back. Look up scripture on strength and guidance and peace. And pray for your mom as well.

I pray for God's grace and mercy for you. That He free you from the depression and other things you're going thru. I believe in my heart that if you walk out on faith and believe God will see you thru these hard times. Give it to God and leave it with Him and He will show you your path in the direction He have for you. Don't give up just have faith. Hope everything works out for you