I feel hopeless and worthless as I am jobless. I worked before as contractual college instructor, i did not reApply as i never wanted to teach. It's not really my bread and butter. However, i couldnt find a job right now. My husband is working just enough to sustain all our daily needs. He hates me because I did not renew my application in teaching. We dont even talk. I am pregnant with my 2nd baby to be, i know we need financial but I really dont want to teach as it stresses me more. Sometimes id wish id never been born because since my childhood I was never blessed and lucky in my life. I always experience disaster.