Just try to let your mind rest at ease and know that God has you in the palm of his hand. You haven't been raptured because the rapture hasn't come yet, we Christians are all waiting for that time. When I was younger I too would sometimes worry over this but as I got older realized that we need to have faith. God doesnt want us to worry or have anxiety he wants us to cast of fear upon him. This scripture came to mind just now when typing this to you. Wishing you peace. This world may seem chaotic but when you trust in God there is peace. 1 John 4:18–19. “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. We love because he first loved us.”