Flossy,
The hurt will go away, even if only for a short while. Relish thrust times and fight with all you have when the hurt is there. You are brave, fierce, and strong, especially to have asked for help.
Keep reaching out and talk. For me, talking releases the fear and anger. It was hard at first and then got easier. Take hope that you know you don't want to hurt yourself.
Submit your prayer request. Thousands of caring people will see it and pray for you.
Dear Lord, Visit with Jamie, share Your peace and joy. Shine Your light upon her heart, banish the darkness. Bring her friends into her life and share their love and support.
Jamie, you are loved. There is an end to this.